HEY EVERYONE,
It has been a year and a half since my last blog on here!
I have been up doing alot of thinking lately! I am in college now and everytime I come back home things change more and more with my friends and everything! I come back and it seems like it is a chore for people to hang out with me! i know they have their own lives now since i have been gone and its really hard to just pick up where everyone left off when the new year started! I read some old letters tonight my best friend wrote me i read alot of them twice! the last letter i got to though was the one she wrote me for graduation! I cannot lie I almost cried knowing how much i have changed since then and how much our friendship has changed since then! We still call each other like once a month but we really dont have in depth conversations like we used to! I would love to just sit down and have one of our old fashion park talks and catch up on the the hell has been going on with her this past year since i left! i know that she has turned to other people with her problems and i just try not to have any problems which is very upsetting i guess because i used to be the sole person many many of my friends used to rely on BUT i just dont feel like i am that person anymore! I know i have changed so Very much since i have graduated and i should accept it people change. But i dont think i have changed for the better! I seem to get down on myself for very many stupid reasons i fall behind in my school work for one week just because i dont feel like doing it and i keep slipping after that because i dont talk to anybody about my life like I used to! I miss helping people with their problems and i just miss life as i used to know it BUT at the same time I love all of my brothers that i live with we are one huge family of 65 AGR's i wouldnt trade those guys for anything! I just hope to rekindle some friendships this summer but i can only hope i guess!
I sure love football i am happy it has started it is sad to think though that it is my last first day for padded practice tomorrow I am a senior Which means no more football after this But its gonna be balls to the wall all season Go Lynch-Butte!!!!!
